teh-horsie

Sometimes I get really nostalgic and I think about things. And I think, wow, I hate who I was in middle school. I was an emo prick. But I had the best of friends, through the internet. And a lot of times now, at 16, I think about all these friends I made, who I would use to escape reality. They were always there when I felt lonely. We had that sense of ever-presence. I was never lonely in middle school. At least, maybe I thought I was because I was, as I said, an emo little prick, but if I had that now, I'd never be lonely. Sometimes I wonder how I made those friends, because it seems so hard for me now to go on Neopets and just pick up on

has anyone seen my creativity? It's been gone for about a year and a half now and I'd really like it back. I've given up writing, drawing, and photography because frankly since it's been gone, I kinda blow. And now I'm beginning to blow at music, and that's the last thing I'd ever want. Someone help me find it.

So, I'm not sure how many of you were watching my other account, or how many of you paid any attention to my other account if you indeed watched it (fuck, I don't even know how many of you still exist.), but I deactivated it a few months back because I had lost any will at all whatsoever to draw. Well, now I feel like that's just a waste of a talent due to stubbornness, and considering I'm on this quest to find my passion I want to try as many things as possible. So, I'll be using this account as "Operation Teach Joli How to Draw Again" because I've basically completely forgotten and I figure it'd be good to track my improvement somehow. I